Tuesday, 30 August 2016

LIFE LIVED

    When I was in school , my favourite teacher who happened to teach us English insisted that we read newspaper daily, to be specific, the editorial page. At home we used to get The Tribune and The Indian Express. But i had my favourites in newspapers as well and Tribune remains my favourite till date. Comprehending the writings of 'think tanks' was an onerous task nevertheless, being a sincere student i opened that page daily and looked for things that could interest me and eventually i took a liking to the writings of Mr. Harish Dhillon. He used to be the principal of a renowned school and he made a wee bit sense to me. Henceforth, began my habit of reading other than school books on daily basis. My grandfather used to stay with us and he was such a voracious reader of newspapers. Every day he would spend couple of hours with each newspaper. Sometimes it seemed to me that newspapers were his intimate companions and he was most contented, calm, composed and considerably happy in its company. If I attribute the inculcation of my reading habit to my English teacher, I attribute my knowledge of vocabulary  solely to my grandfather. Although I was more than sure that my grandfather knew the meaning of each and every word in every possible dictionary by heart, yet he would insist that I look up the meaning of difficult words in the dictionary myself, because according to his logic, if i put in effort to look up, the effort will keep on reminding the purpose and therefore I shall never forget the meaning. Wonder what his logic would have been for all those dictionary apps that believe in only making our lives easier. Touch and read. 

    Holiday homework, which in those days seemed like one of the most cruel inventions ever, instructed us, among other tasks, to write down any ten interesting news-headlines daily. Something which seemed to be an utterly futile process then, contributed a great deal in developing my interest in politics later. My grandfather was obsessed with the idea of death and I had heard him discuss it often with hia peers. His other passion was writings of Khushwant Singh which led me to read his articles and eventually I used to look forward keenly to his musings in sunday editions. Till date Khuswant Singh remains my favourite author. When I joined college, like any college going girl I too had my share of crushes and the biggest of them all was my crush on the cricketer Imran Khan thanks to the sports page which remained my favourite page for a long time. 

     Let me also mention that one of my college teachers introduced me to The Hindu. I was 'attracted' to this newspaper because it's tuesday edition carried a small column named "Know your English." The scrap book made out of the cuttings related to this column still remains my most valuable belonging till date. Gradually, newspaper reading became quite an addiction and remains one till date despite the fact that Twitter renders all the news stale these days. Newspapers have evolved a great deal over the years, page long and full page advertisements take up most of the space these days. One thing that has remained the same throughout these years is the obituary column. My obsession with these columns started when my own grandfather's obituary was published in the newspaper. How much this small obit revealed about his life was just amazing. The message conveyed that he had lived a full and fruitful life flanked by his four loving children and many grandchildren, though he stayed with us only throughout. His picture showed how youthful and handsome and happy he had been once.  This column is my only favourite column these days. I can spend hours looking at the pics of those dead. Some smiling, some laughing, some grim, some old, some young, making me wonder what made their near ones chose this particular picture for the final tribute. Sometimes while taking a selfie a thought crosses my mind what if this pic becomes a means of final goodbye and I smile harder. The size of the picture amazes me as well making me think whether a bigger picture implies bigger love or bigger social status? The loving messages attributed to the dead, the details of the family, details of the occupation, home address--doesn't a mere obit tell us all about the life once lived? Is it truly a measure of life?

     For some, obituary may be a plain show off, for me it will always remain a tribute of love by the loved ones. I've no idea whether my obit will feature in the newspaper but I certainly would want to be missed after my death.



Monday, 14 October 2013

MONEY MAKES YOU AN ACADEMICIAN

     A swanky plush office, her youthful pictures with so many renowned personalities adorning the office walls, a 3 carat diamond ring, nail art and many shaded streaky hair, her expensive watch and simple but expensive saree......meet Mrs Sen, the 'Owner-Principal' of a reputed school in Delhi. Her appearance and demeanor was enough to either intimidate others or make them fawn in awe. 
     My chance meeting with her took place during my interview for the job of a senior English teacher in the school. She spoke with a subtle americanized accent but sounded very firm yet friendly. She seemed in control but was not at all cordial. How useless and ridiculous my Gold Medal and other degrees, which were achievements I reveled in, seemed to me that very moment sitting in front of her. Later on she also proved it to me. 'Mrs Sen' immediately formed an impression of me, probably a good one and invited me to give a demo to students to assess my abilities. That's a separate story that there were only a handful of students and almost an equal number of teachers in the class trying either to judge me or intimidate me, something I will never know.
     Mrs Sen decided to give me the job while all the time making me aware of the so called glaring mistakes that I had made while taking the demo class. I was a bit reluctant to join, so she tried to show her magnanimity by offering me a free cup of tea every day and free bus facilities. Simultaneously in a hushed tone I was told that my original certificates would be kept with her till the time she felt I could work for her. Some people think they own the world, wonder what gives them the confidence?
     My queries and apprehensions were met with a stern and most menacing glance as if I had done something blasphemous. To add to this was the servile and embarrassingly obsequious attitude of the wives of some high officials working as teachers in the school whose sole aim seemed to me to please the mighty Mrs Sen. This was not going well with my highly sensitive sensibilities. I was really missing my position of a headmistress in a reputed school which I had quit only recently owing to family commitments. I never realized that money power can give one the confidence of behaving like an academician of international repute and treat others like slaves with sheer disregard to their experience and stature. I also realized that teaching is not the preferred choice of profession and many join it either out  of some compulsion or for sheer time pass. When one is offered money, many simply grab it and try to hide their feelings and even academic incompetence in the garb of sycophancy. 
     To cut the long story short, being a rebel that I am, I was not prepared to be cowed down by their tactics of trying to intimidate new applicants into submission. I decided to say no to a supposedly 'lucrative offer in a top Delhi School' and armed with this new found confidence I marched right into Mrs Sen's office the next day. My decision must have shocked her cause I could see her riding on the horns of dilemma but her ego emerged victorious. She must have been really miffed at me cause when I requested her to return my original certificates, she could only reply by saying "Why would we keep your certificates, we have enough trash".
     So here I am, happy and still hunting!!!
         

Saturday, 26 January 2013

Mr. Y

Hurling abuses & issuing warnings comes to him naturally and all his talk reeks of egocentric musings ;
                           Yet his name is synonymous with peace, warmth and understanding.

Disregarding the value of time and making people wait for him is his signature style;
                           Yet his name is synonymous with values, ethics and morals.

Thriving on controversies to enhance his  popularity is his most cherished mantra for survival ;
                            Yet his name is synonymous with simplicity, humility and modesty.

Indulging in personal whims and fancies & turning a blind eye to the ills infesting the society is a personal choice;
                            Yet his name is synonymous with benevolence, altruism and self-sacrifice.

Flaunting his power and position to silence the voice of intellectual elite gives him an immense sense of pride;
                             Yet his name is synonymous with poise, grace and profundity.

He is too preoccupied exploring the new highs of his luxurious life  to look into the grievances of those who reposed immense faith in him;
                              Yet he is the leader, politician and 'a superior'.